This will be my last post on this blog, but there is another. I have started a new blog here, so you are welcome to share the next part of the journey together. Just click here honeys – wildlyunearthed.com to sign up to follow.
Why? I need a new start. I started this blog in 2012. Entering one of the most profound transformations and here I am, and fuck what a ride. I feel to begin a new path because yes more change coming but this time it’s not entering the depths of shit 😀 I am now in the depths of vivid clarity and I can feel the enormity of what’s to come.
I will also be unpublishing and deleting my current art page Chaos Moon Arts in the next week or two and I’ve began another, again same reason.
If you would like to continue on travelling together you can like the the new page here, UneARThed.
It feels weird to be ending all of this but at the same time clear as fuck about it. I’m excited and nervous and just simply thank you to all the readers for travelling this unreal road of life. Fuck what a journey it is.
I believe creativity has a pulse. I don’t believe in blocks because we can create the block and move through it, but I do believe in rest time and yes sometimes it’s years and sometimes it’s a day, either way creative energy needs inspiration. And though sometimes we can feel a slight ping of inspiration, sometimes it’s just not enough to push through the new energy that’s wanting to be birthed, and like any birth we need to wait for the right time, you can’t make a birth happen because you want it to, as our creative energy needs inspiration to move towards the birth.
I’ve been thinking on this while writing and what I need to inspire myself to write. For me I find writing is more challenging to birth the new energy. I’d say it’s because it’s more mind orientated than what painting is so we tend to overthink the fear, but I find both support each other nicely.
I’ve been thinking on what inspires me and what gets things moving and for me and it’s always nature. Not just being in nature but losing myself in the detailed creation of a leaf, a petal or sitting next to my eggplant babies in awe of how nature works. This is where photography gets everything going for me.
I lose myself in macro photography. There’s an awe and peace losing yourself in the magic of nature.
Losing your imagination within the details, details that are too small to see which gets the imagination flowing of how, and the what ifs and not to mention the connection with nature that grounds the fear, roots us back to our bodies and moves the creative energy back up to the surface.
I haven’t felt stagnant in creative flow, if anything I think sometimes I have too much of it, this inspiration thing got me thinking as I begin to write again. I’ve been losing myself in painting and herbal craft (that’s another post) but because now I’m in the flow of my writing 😀 I haven’t stopped all day I thought I’d share the magic of nature photography that has always got things moving for me when I’m moving towards birthing new creativity.
It is a strange fact, but also one that very much shows the state of our world is in, how people fear depth when once upon a time visionaries were honoured and sort after for bringing in insight and wisdom from our ancestors and spirits who freely want to support humanity to evolve.
True visionaries connect with spirit to bring information to their communities whether in person or online, to support and assist humanity to evolve, meaning their work will carry depth and insight that may at times challenge your perception or the way you view the world or insight that may unsettle you. That’s not a bad thing, it’s necessary. It’s necessary to know, to grow and being uncomfortable is necessary because change is constant, everything is always moving whether we choose to accept that or not, but most people don’t want uncomfortable and how I view this is they know deep down by not being able to carry or feel the unsettledness from such wisdom, they are trying to control the fear they feel instead of confronting what is being felt.
People don’t want to feel uncomfortable feelings anymore, I sometimes wonder do they actually want to feel because it is part of our human make up to feel all sorts of feelings, avoidance does nothing but allow it to grow to the point of overwhelm and sometimes even breakdown.
Why am I writing this? I have always shared the depth of my work and my art is no exception but I have noticed lately that the more I’m sharing the depth of my art the more my audience is dropping. No, not worried, actually I’m grateful and yes this is in reference to my social media platforms.
It does show the lack of understanding around the depth of art and what it actually means and how a lot of people do not understand, well shall we say forgotten, what the channel for creativity is here for.
I am finding the more my audience drops, the more confident I feel about my work. Why, because I’m rattling the mass thinkers and I believe this is what my work is here for. In saying that, I have new changes with my art that I will share very soon. xxx
2016, what a fucking year to say the least! As much as it was unexpected in pretty much every single way, I see now with so much clarity why it was. If you’re still complaining about how shit this year was, then prepare yourself for more work next year because clearly you haven’t received the best parts of why it was so damn chaotic.
And you know, realistically, each year will become more chaotic until humanity wakes the fuck up. That’s what we’re here for so I say to you now, embrace for a massive ride next year too. Yes, embrace it because fuck, we have no other choice.
This year has been huge for clearing out inner crap, pulling apart old belief systems that were based on painful hurts. It was also a year of learning to let go again in every way and trust that wherever it was taking me it was for a bigger reason and of course I did. It was painful, I’m not going to lie, but now as I sit here preparing and creating work for next year, wow, am I so grateful.
What I’m focusing on now as an artist, is rebuilding my confidence. I lost much of my confidence as I was thrown around internally this year and had to let go of my art practice in order for me to continue on with it next year. That was hard. Really hard. It touched on an old trauma from long ago that I’m still managing while I rebuild again.
So to rebuild, I have to sit with a bit of emotional pain to be my confidence again. Challenging to say the least, but that’s the beauty of doing something that is soulful that you can’t live without, you’ll go through the shittiest terrain to be in that joy again. Grateful for such deep work.
I also found that part of my lost confidence is the purpose with my art has changed. I did notice it but at the same time I didn’t give it the attention it needed. That focus is necessary to connect with my work and with my audience, without it for me, I find I’m just displaying my art and feel overly exposed. Like standing there naked for people to judge and there’s no purpose to why I’m standing there naked 😀
It also gives me a focus and a direction, without it, too much energy not channelled is chaos.
And speaking of chaos, this is the direction my art is taking me, right in the middle of the Mystery.
My message is one of letting go and moving with something much bigger than our tiny selves. Allowing yourself to be swept up in change and trusting your knowing that it’s for a deeper reason, a greater purpose even when you cannot see. This trust in your knowing, is the what we all need to practice because as we can see, chaos is growing in our world and we have to trust and believe in our real selves, our intuition to get us through. That’s all we have because everything else can be taken away at anytime.
So my plans for 2017 is some of what you’ve read, but I’m also open to that changing at anytime because that just seems the way these days. Make loose plans and trust whatever comes.
To all my Facebook. Blog and IG supporters, I can’t thank you enough for walking with me through the many changes I’ve experienced this year. Without you I wouldn’t be able to do what the fire inside me thinks of every day even when I’m not creating, so thank you xxx
Rewilding – to restore to it’s natural uncultivated state. Let’s take that sentence right into ourselves and sit with that like forever and let it become who we naturally are.
Mercury retrograde has this thing where it likes to bend you over when you’re not looking and do things to you to wake you the fuck up in ways that are never comfortable, and hey I’m so used to being stripped back to fuck all I’ve grown to love it and wouldn’t have it any other way because the liberation that is experienced and what I become I honestly wouldn’t want to have it any other way.
The word rewilding was repeated in my dream last night over and over again. The word was said many times and was written and shoved in my face so I think I need to pay attention to it and I have been over the last few weeks but clearly it’s really trying to get my attention now. I’ve been really thinking about my art practice and what I put out into the world through my social media pages and really asking myself, am I being raw as fuck as I would like to be on my art pages and if not why not?
I don’t think I am, not intentionally. It’s a feeling you know, it’s a feeling that I’m exploring and a feeling I have not yet expressed through my art yet. All I can say there’s a fear and I’m just sitting with it, looking at it and letting it get comfortable with me and I with it before I pull it apart gently and see what’s beneath it.
I created this page for my mediumship readings on Facebook – Blunt as Fuck Tarot Readings and that’s changed everything for me. Finally I’ve allowed myself to be myself through my work after having so much expectation thrown on me to be a certain way which I am not and never fucking will be, its given me space to really look at things and to pull myself onto the dirt and see am I being this way in everything that I do publicly?
This is the reason why I haven’t posted too much on my pages as yet, I’m feeling my way into something that has to be all me. We all put on face for many different reasons, some purposely and others not but I cannot have anything less than what’s all of me so when I find what that is or feel into what the fuck is holding me back and why I’ll share it here or on my pages or all of them I don’t know but it will be shared.
Mercury fucking retrograde can piss off now thanks and apparently it will this Wednesday. Christ almighty I’ve had enough of it. I’ve created about two pieces of art since it begun, my head’s mushy, I’m behind in my study, and I’m tired as fuck of feeling. Anyone else tired of feeling so much?
These last few weeks have felt like months, seriously months but besides all the whinging I did get a heap of stuff done, other stuff besides art that will clear the way for more art and more greenery. I’m obsessed with permaculture and anything green and that’s where my heart seems to be calling me the most nowadays besides art.
The sadness of seeing our earth in such a critical state because of us, people not humans, hurts. I’m finding this sadness has deepened to depression at times but how can you not feel depressed at times? If you’re connected you’ll feel the hurt.
I find this hurt stops me from creating too. I kind of just fall in a lull and just want to be outside more loving our Mother and putting some good stuff back into Her, sitting at the beach or forest and just listen to Her..just listening because we don’t listen anymore, we haven’t been for too long a very big reason why this world is off balance, we don’t live close to Her anymore.
Permaculture principles rule my life now and I bring it into every place of my life including my art life which I have found ways to create art in a more sustainable way which I’ll share in another post. I just think we all need to learn how to live more sustainably and be that in every aspect of our lives and share. Share the knowledge because it’s such a heart centred and harmonious practice and we all should be interested in the planet that gives too much to us.
So I’ve decided this; my writing page will be changed into a permaculture page. It’s time I’ve been studying it for a while and I want to share what we can do to help ourselves and every living being on the planet. This is the link to the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/theshadowandthewild/ – right now it’s still my writing page but it will be changed this Wednesday when Mercury finally fucks off. And the name will be changed then and my writing will be shared on my art page which is connected to this blog.
I’ll share more over the next week because I’m still processing too much and still feeling pain, not going to lie. xxx
I’m exploring different styles at present but one that I adore is abstract art.
What I love about abstract art is space. Space is what I’m exploring in my art at the moment and what that can offer to the viewer.
Space offers people a place to feel. To get lost for a moment in their inner world. To connect. To listen to themselves. To experience the peace of who they are.
There’s no distraction with abstraction. It silences the mind and allows the imagination to wonder and the heart to feel. To drop into the peaceful chaos of the unknown within. To go deep even for a moment.
So here is my latest piece, ‘Deep’ – acrylics on canvas.
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