This will be my last post on this blog, but there is another. I have started a new blog here, so you are welcome to share the next part of the journey together. Just click here honeys – wildlyunearthed.com to sign up to follow.
Why? I need a new start. I started this blog in 2012. Entering one of the most profound transformations and here I am, and fuck what a ride. I feel to begin a new path because yes more change coming but this time it’s not entering the depths of shit 😀 I am now in the depths of vivid clarity and I can feel the enormity of what’s to come.
I will also be unpublishing and deleting my current art page Chaos Moon Arts in the next week or two and I’ve began another, again same reason.
If you would like to continue on travelling together you can like the the new page here, UneARThed.
It feels weird to be ending all of this but at the same time clear as fuck about it. I’m excited and nervous and just simply thank you to all the readers for travelling this unreal road of life. Fuck what a journey it is.
There’s a stillness in the air and an unease to go with it. I’m sure most of us can feel something’s coming and fuck knows what it is but it feels big. The release feels big. Something new, something needed and it feels we are just waiting patiently tending to whatever we need to which is drawing us right into ourselves into our much needed caves.
Though beneath the stillness it feels chaotic and there’s an anxiety building but a knowing to go with it. The knowing that we are being pushed to do our thing whatever that thing is. It feels like the fire of why we’re here is being pushed up to be finally manifested in the physical. Some of us know what that is. Some of us know only part of it and some of us can feel it but have no fucking clue as to what it is.
Either way it’s coming.
I can’t seem to paint which is what I usually do through spaces like this because I love to utilise the energy of what I’m feeling and usually what I paint I can see or feel what is possibly coming through my canvas. But that’s not working. Clay maybe a goer which I will try tomorrow but the only self soothing and productive thing to do right now is writing. Between work and the garden this is the only thing that speaks. I’ve found a flow that I haven’t felt with writing before.
I chose to fuck off any criticism I have had around writing and I have had a shit load but at the end of the day it is creativity and it is a form of communication two things that the world needs, two things I need. Whether my words get read or not, the only thing that matters is that I’m putting it into form and me the writer is accessing a flow within myself that matters greatly in a world gone fucking mad.
It’s giving me a sense of peace and a knowing, actually it’s growing both and how fucking interesting that my creative flow has taken this medium which for some reason feels important to where I’m going to which I have no idea but it feels good and I’m trusting what I do not know.
I’m slowly building new work and I’m sharing and exercising some of that energy (link below) while also writing the website and pages of a book that’s been in slow progression over the last year.
Haven’t we all walked into a crazy beginning of the year? Fuck almighty with everything that’s happening in the world it’s given me clear perspective. It’s definitely lit a fire under my arse and got me thinking to where to now and narrow in to what’s actually important and how I want to use my energy.
I had a very small moment of thinking, why create art when the world is going to shit?
It’s was brief, a few seconds of fear 😄 but more than anything we need to keep making art, write, create all the good and beauty we want to see in the world between being proactive to change shit too.
Theres a time to make a stand and fight the good fight, and then there’s a time to cave, create, be and listen. Creativity will keep us sane. Keep us centred as fuck, to go beneath the fear because let’s face it’s going to get worse.
But we can write words of encouragement, write poetry, share how we feel letting others know they’re not alone. And we need beautiful pictures to escape into, to make us feel, to inspire us to do more and remind us that we have the power to change shit up.
It a time for reflection that’s for sure, but it’s also a time for action. The duality of the masculine and feminine working together within which is what’s missing in the world.
Where’s the feminine honoured in all of this mess? It’s not, that’s why there’s chaos why we need writers and artists of every genre more than ever. Exercising creativity, exercises creative thought and action so fuck yeah to making art.
I have never lived what’s considered to be ‘normal’, I walk the the old ways of how it once was so I’ve always been on the edges of society. I live close to the earth, I’ll do anything for her, and who I am and how I live is the greatest resistance there can be right now and we need more people that choose earth, art and the web of life first.
I believe creativity has a pulse. I don’t believe in blocks because we can create the block and move through it, but I do believe in rest time and yes sometimes it’s years and sometimes it’s a day, either way creative energy needs inspiration. And though sometimes we can feel a slight ping of inspiration, sometimes it’s just not enough to push through the new energy that’s wanting to be birthed, and like any birth we need to wait for the right time, you can’t make a birth happen because you want it to, as our creative energy needs inspiration to move towards the birth.
I’ve been thinking on this while writing and what I need to inspire myself to write. For me I find writing is more challenging to birth the new energy. I’d say it’s because it’s more mind orientated than what painting is so we tend to overthink the fear, but I find both support each other nicely.
I’ve been thinking on what inspires me and what gets things moving and for me and it’s always nature. Not just being in nature but losing myself in the detailed creation of a leaf, a petal or sitting next to my eggplant babies in awe of how nature works. This is where photography gets everything going for me.
I lose myself in macro photography. There’s an awe and peace losing yourself in the magic of nature.
Losing your imagination within the details, details that are too small to see which gets the imagination flowing of how, and the what ifs and not to mention the connection with nature that grounds the fear, roots us back to our bodies and moves the creative energy back up to the surface.
I haven’t felt stagnant in creative flow, if anything I think sometimes I have too much of it, this inspiration thing got me thinking as I begin to write again. I’ve been losing myself in painting and herbal craft (that’s another post) but because now I’m in the flow of my writing 😀 I haven’t stopped all day I thought I’d share the magic of nature photography that has always got things moving for me when I’m moving towards birthing new creativity.
It is a strange fact, but also one that very much shows the state of our world is in, how people fear depth when once upon a time visionaries were honoured and sort after for bringing in insight and wisdom from our ancestors and spirits who freely want to support humanity to evolve.
True visionaries connect with spirit to bring information to their communities whether in person or online, to support and assist humanity to evolve, meaning their work will carry depth and insight that may at times challenge your perception or the way you view the world or insight that may unsettle you. That’s not a bad thing, it’s necessary. It’s necessary to know, to grow and being uncomfortable is necessary because change is constant, everything is always moving whether we choose to accept that or not, but most people don’t want uncomfortable and how I view this is they know deep down by not being able to carry or feel the unsettledness from such wisdom, they are trying to control the fear they feel instead of confronting what is being felt.
People don’t want to feel uncomfortable feelings anymore, I sometimes wonder do they actually want to feel because it is part of our human make up to feel all sorts of feelings, avoidance does nothing but allow it to grow to the point of overwhelm and sometimes even breakdown.
Why am I writing this? I have always shared the depth of my work and my art is no exception but I have noticed lately that the more I’m sharing the depth of my art the more my audience is dropping. No, not worried, actually I’m grateful and yes this is in reference to my social media platforms.
It does show the lack of understanding around the depth of art and what it actually means and how a lot of people do not understand, well shall we say forgotten, what the channel for creativity is here for.
I am finding the more my audience drops, the more confident I feel about my work. Why, because I’m rattling the mass thinkers and I believe this is what my work is here for. In saying that, I have new changes with my art that I will share very soon. xxx
My focus and direction at present with my art alone is chaos. Sharing through my art how to find stillness within chaos, to trust your knowing; your real self, because everything else can be taken away at any time. That’s a truth. Re-learning how to surrender to move with the Mystery, with change.. because have you not noticed, shit is getting intense. We are living in a powerful time so we choose to surrender and move with the almighty flow or self destruct. Truth again, but most can’t swallow the truth so they will be swallowed.
Intense yes, but truth, so go with it. Be part of the change. So briefly here’s what I want to share…
Get empowered. Stop fucking around and be the reason why you’re here. Stop self oppressing (yes there is such a fucking thing)
Without me saying anymore, just click on this link below and come run with me in 2017, (shit not long now to go now :))
2016, what a fucking year to say the least! As much as it was unexpected in pretty much every single way, I see now with so much clarity why it was. If you’re still complaining about how shit this year was, then prepare yourself for more work next year because clearly you haven’t received the best parts of why it was so damn chaotic.
And you know, realistically, each year will become more chaotic until humanity wakes the fuck up. That’s what we’re here for so I say to you now, embrace for a massive ride next year too. Yes, embrace it because fuck, we have no other choice.
This year has been huge for clearing out inner crap, pulling apart old belief systems that were based on painful hurts. It was also a year of learning to let go again in every way and trust that wherever it was taking me it was for a bigger reason and of course I did. It was painful, I’m not going to lie, but now as I sit here preparing and creating work for next year, wow, am I so grateful.
What I’m focusing on now as an artist, is rebuilding my confidence. I lost much of my confidence as I was thrown around internally this year and had to let go of my art practice in order for me to continue on with it next year. That was hard. Really hard. It touched on an old trauma from long ago that I’m still managing while I rebuild again.
So to rebuild, I have to sit with a bit of emotional pain to be my confidence again. Challenging to say the least, but that’s the beauty of doing something that is soulful that you can’t live without, you’ll go through the shittiest terrain to be in that joy again. Grateful for such deep work.
I also found that part of my lost confidence is the purpose with my art has changed. I did notice it but at the same time I didn’t give it the attention it needed. That focus is necessary to connect with my work and with my audience, without it for me, I find I’m just displaying my art and feel overly exposed. Like standing there naked for people to judge and there’s no purpose to why I’m standing there naked 😀
It also gives me a focus and a direction, without it, too much energy not channelled is chaos.
And speaking of chaos, this is the direction my art is taking me, right in the middle of the Mystery.
My message is one of letting go and moving with something much bigger than our tiny selves. Allowing yourself to be swept up in change and trusting your knowing that it’s for a deeper reason, a greater purpose even when you cannot see. This trust in your knowing, is the what we all need to practice because as we can see, chaos is growing in our world and we have to trust and believe in our real selves, our intuition to get us through. That’s all we have because everything else can be taken away at anytime.
So my plans for 2017 is some of what you’ve read, but I’m also open to that changing at anytime because that just seems the way these days. Make loose plans and trust whatever comes.
To all my Facebook. Blog and IG supporters, I can’t thank you enough for walking with me through the many changes I’ve experienced this year. Without you I wouldn’t be able to do what the fire inside me thinks of every day even when I’m not creating, so thank you xxx