Why We Need Artists and Writers

Haven’t we all walked into a crazy beginning of the year? Fuck almighty with everything that’s happening in the world it’s given me clear perspective. It’s definitely lit a fire under my arse and got me thinking to where to now and narrow in to what’s actually important and how I want to use my energy.

I had a very small moment of thinking, why create art when the world is going to shit?  

It’s was brief, a few seconds of fear 😄 but more than anything we need to keep making art, write, create all the good and beauty we want to see in the world between being proactive to change shit too. 

Theres a time to make a stand and fight the good fight, and then there’s a time to cave, create, be and listen. Creativity will keep us sane. Keep us centred as fuck, to go beneath the fear because let’s face it’s going to get worse. 

But we can write words of encouragement, write poetry, share how we feel letting others know they’re not alone. And we need beautiful pictures to escape into, to make us feel, to inspire us to do more and remind us that we have the power to change shit up. 

It a time for reflection that’s for sure, but it’s also a time for action. The duality of the masculine and feminine working together within which is what’s missing in the world. 

Where’s the feminine honoured in all of this mess? It’s not, that’s why there’s chaos why we need writers and artists of every genre more than ever. Exercising creativity, exercises creative thought and action so fuck yeah to making art.

I have never lived what’s considered to be ‘normal’, I walk the the old ways of how it once was so I’ve always been on the edges of society. I live close to the earth, I’ll do anything for her, and who I am and how I live is the greatest resistance there can be right now and we need more people that choose earth, art and the web of life first. 

That’s true activism. 
 

Spirit Speaks – Art & Writing With Depth

It is a strange fact, but also one that very much shows the state of our world is in, how people fear depth when once upon a time visionaries were honoured and sort after for bringing in insight and wisdom from our ancestors and spirits who freely want to support humanity to evolve.

True visionaries connect with spirit to bring information to their communities whether in person or online, to support and assist humanity to evolve, meaning their work will carry depth and insight that may at times challenge your perception or the way you view the world or insight that may unsettle you. That’s not a bad thing, it’s necessary. It’s necessary to know, to grow and being uncomfortable is necessary because change is constant, everything is always moving whether we choose to accept that or not, but most people don’t want uncomfortable and how I view this is they know deep down by not being able to carry or feel the unsettledness from such wisdom, they are trying to control the fear they feel instead of confronting what is being felt.

People don’t want to feel uncomfortable feelings anymore, I sometimes wonder do they actually want to feel because it is part of our human make up to feel all sorts of feelings, avoidance does nothing but allow it to grow to the point of overwhelm and sometimes even breakdown.

Why am I writing this? I have always shared the depth of my work and my art is no exception but I have noticed lately that the more I’m sharing the depth of my art the more my audience is dropping. No, not worried, actually I’m grateful and yes this is in reference to my social media platforms.

It does show the lack of understanding around the depth of art and what it actually means and how a lot of people do not understand, well shall we say forgotten, what the channel for creativity is here for.

I am finding the more my audience drops, the more confident I feel about my work. Why, because I’m rattling the mass thinkers and I believe this is what my work is here for. In saying that, I have new changes with my art that I will share very soon. xxx

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Work in Progress – influence of Vodou chaos painting by Astara Lak’ech (c) 

Permaculture and More Change

Mercury fucking retrograde can piss off now thanks and apparently it will this Wednesday. Christ almighty I’ve had enough of it. I’ve created about two pieces of art since it begun, my head’s mushy, I’m behind in my study, and I’m tired as fuck of feeling. Anyone else tired of feeling so much?

These last few weeks have felt like months, seriously months but besides all the whinging I did get a heap of stuff done, other stuff besides art that will clear the way for more art and more greenery. I’m obsessed with permaculture and anything green and that’s where my heart seems to be calling me the most nowadays besides art.

The sadness of seeing our earth in such a critical state because of us, people not humans, hurts. I’m finding this sadness has deepened to depression at times but how can you not feel depressed at times? If you’re connected you’ll feel the hurt.

I find this hurt stops me from creating too. I kind of just fall in a lull and just want to be outside more loving our Mother and putting some good stuff back into Her, sitting at the beach or forest and just listen to Her..just listening because we don’t listen anymore, we haven’t been for too long a very big reason why this world is off balance, we don’t live close to Her anymore.

Permaculture principles rule my life now and I bring it into every place of my life including my art life which I have found ways to create art in a more sustainable way which I’ll share in another post. I just think we all need to learn how to live more sustainably and be that in every aspect of our lives and share. Share the knowledge because it’s such a heart centred and harmonious practice and we all should be interested in the planet that gives too much to us.

So I’ve decided this; my writing page will be changed into a permaculture page. It’s time I’ve been studying it for a while and I want to share what we can do to help ourselves and every living being on the planet. This is the link to the Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/theshadowandthewild/ – right now it’s still my writing page but it will be changed this Wednesday when Mercury finally fucks off. And the name will be changed then and my writing will be shared on my art page which is connected to this blog.

I’ll share more over the next week because I’m still processing too much and still feeling pain, not going to lie. xxx

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Healing my Relationship to Self and Creative Energy

I’ve been wanting to write a post about the inner journey that has finally landed me here..finally! Fuck almighty what a ride! and so happy to finally come back to a place of creation. I have a new found respect and gratitude for my creative energy like never before and also learning to understand this energy much more than I ever have.

Being creative has always been very natural to me. It is something I have never understood up until now that I have taken advantage of this energy unintentionally and realised though I have a deep understanding of my creative force how important it is to actually understand this force like an intimate partner because it is. It’s powerful and extremely moving. It moves me to places unexplored and untouched not just creatively but also within my emotional body and when there are wounds that are needing presence and attention how much it can throw things off balance and the necessity of getting to the core and understanding of these wounds…

..which I always have done but only until recently I’ve come to understand why I spent many hours at a time on my kitchen floor as a blubbering mess wondering why I can’t sell my paintings. It sounds fucking strange I know but I know now with clarity which wound it was rubbing against. It was overwhelming to feel because it felt just so bloody big I was unable to grasp a thread of where to begin up until three weeks ago.

Shame. Toxic shame to be clear. Really old pain from my childhood which really has been my burden in this lifetime like nothing else. To be seen and vulnerable in my uniqueness has alway been a struggle for me and not to mention the small but harsh inner dialogue that is so easily triggered by what looks like nothing can open the gapping wound of my inner child.

I’m still working through it but even within the small space of time I have shifted and become aware of the subtle inner dialogue. I’ve been writing as much as I can trying to catch the negative inner voice and get to the core of what I’m actually doing and trying to say behind the pain of it all.

I’m grateful, so grateful for so much I have learnt about myself over the last three and a half months of not painting. I had a strange pull to write instead of painting which led me here. I felt there was an inner journey to be taken by learning to understand why I want to write and not paint. That may again sound strange to some but it made perfect sense to me and I was right.

It was an online writing course that supported me to explore deeper wounds from another view point which enabled this new awareness.

So not only have I arrived at a place which I will be continuing to explore but also something else that has been revealed which is also so very precious to me. My work with children.

Coming up to almost 8 years now I have known I was to work with children in a unique way which will change the lives of so many. I have looked at this energy, watered, fed it, nurtured it, thrown it to one side to pick it up again and look at it some more. I fear and respect it all at the same time I know this is definitely a calling. The energy is very high but I also knew something was missing and I had more work to do inside myself before I manifest it..

..and that something has been received. The way I am to deliver this blessing and it isn’t just about children but the inner child of everyone. I think I cried for a good solid hour after receiving this for many reasons. It wasn’t just relief but gratitude to my commitment to grow and love who I am but also I felt with my whole body I can do this. I’ve had many friends and clients compliment my work with children but when you carry toxic shame this realisation, this knowing is life changing.

I will share it once everything has settled and I feel comfortable to put it out in the world.

So 🙂 this is me up to date. What a blessing to live life to the fullest, to choose to walk a path with eyes and heart wide open. I will share more as time unfolds but right now I’m staying close to whats happening inside to give the attention, presence and love I deserve. Love each of you for sharing this journey with me you have no idea how much. Grateful.

Thank you xoxo

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Writing, Art & Hedge Witchery 

I am sure no one expected the beginning of this year to turn out like this 😳😂 seriously lots of unexpected change which has changed the course of where I’m heading to completely, but now that I’ve found a bit of earth to plant my feet on even if it’s just for a while (and I’m sure it will be just for a while) I’ve been able to view the direction of where my art is heading to now.

I think the biggest thing for me is that the feeling around my art has changed. The last two years I’ve been very self focused with my creativity and I still am but it’s shifting into different forms I hadn’t expected. I think this may have been the biggest thing for me is adapting to how I feel when I create now and when I think about creating. It’s different. The feeling is less intense, quieter not so loud, well when it comes to painting BUT when it comes to writing the push is huge. I now have to make sure I write at least 2-3 times a day and if I can’t I feel unsettled so you can say I’ve swapped the paint brush for the pen.

Admittedly, I’ve been sulking a lot about this switch 😂😩 it’s true I have and I’ve been procrastinating a lot because I’m sulking that I’m not painting as much as I was. Some might say go paint anyway but it doesn’t work like that for me at least, if I don’t feel it I don’t do it.

So the blog maybe a touch quieter..maybe..probably not but you can find me here too Hedge Witchery and you can view some of my writing here on my other Facebook page click here –> Hedge Witchery-Astara Lak’ech

I am and still will be creating it’s just another amazing time of more change and I trust my mad hatter fluctuations 😂 I always go with whatever I feel. Gotta trust the journey even when you can’t see. Trust your gut always and that’s what I’m doing.

BUT I have come back to my photography and I’ll be sharing more of that here soon. Xxx

Compassion for All Life

Let’s be honest, regardless of how noble your occupation is if you can’t think past caring about people only then I don’t think you’re doing it right.

True compassion is for ALL life. All life. We all live on this planet. All of us. It’s all of our responsibility to look after it not just a select few.

If your heart isn’t open to every living being then you’re not loving to your full capacity so when you make judgement on someone or something I’m not going to take your opinion into consideration.

These are my thoughts while I was taking these photos whilst speaking to a beautiful friend who actually gives a fuck about this planet.  I’m with ya honey.

Love you, you know who you are xoxo